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When evening came the great transformation began. With the first
deepening of color the desert's silent heart began to beat in
expectation of its hour of beauty. Its bleak detail was lost in
shrouding veils and fiery reflection. The earth floor became a golden
sea from which the capes reared themselves in shapes of bronze and
copper. The ring of mountains in the east flushed to the pink of the
topaz, then bending westward shaded from rosy lilac to mauve, and where
the sunset backed them, darkened to black. As the hour progressed the
stillness grew more profound, the naked levels swept out in wilder
glory, inundated by pools of light, lines of fire eating a glowing way
through sinks where twilight gathered. With each moment it became a
more tremendous spectacle. The solemnity attendant on the passage of a
miracle held it. From the sun's mouth the voice of God seemed calling
the dead land to life. Each night the travelers gazed upon it, ragged forms gilded by its
radiance, awed and dumb. Its splendors crushed them, filling them with
nostalgic longings. They bore on with eyes that were sick for a sight
of some homely, familiar thing that would tell them they were still
human, still denizens of a world they knew. The life into which they
fitted and had uses was as though perished from the face of the earth.
The weak man sunk beneath the burden of its strangeness. Its beauty
made no appeal to him. He felt lost and dazed in its iron-ringed
ruthlessness, dry as a skeleton by daylight, at night transformed by
witchfires of enchantment. The man and woman, in whom vitality was
strong, combatted its blighting force, refused to be broken by its
power. They desired with vehemence to assert themselves, to rebel, not
to submit to the sense of their nothingness. They turned to one
another hungry for the life that now was only within themselves. They
had passed beyond the limits of the accustomed, were like detached
particles gone outside the law of gravity, floating undirected through
spaces where they were nothing and had nothing but their bodies, their
passions, themselves. To a surface observation they would have appeared as stolid as savages,
but their nerves were taut as drawn violin strings. Strange
self-assertions, violences of temper, were under the skin ready to
break out at a jar in the methodical routine. Had the train been
larger, its solidarity less complete, furious quarrels would have taken
place. With an acknowledged leader whom they believed in and obeyed,
the chances of friction were lessened. Three of them could meet the
physical demands of the struggle. It was David's fate that, unable to
do this, he should fall to a position of feeble uselessness, endurable
in a woman, but difficult to put up with in a man. One morning Susan was waked by angry voices. An oath shook sleep from
her, and thrusting her head out of the wagon where she now slept, she
saw the three men standing in a group, rage on Courant's face, disgust
on Daddy John's, and on David's an abstraction of aghast dismay that
was not unlike despair. To her question Daddy John gave a short
answer. David's horses, insecurely picketed, had pulled up their
stakes in the night and gone. A memory of the young man's exhaustion
the evening before, told the girl the story; David had forgotten to
picket them and immediately after supper had fallen asleep. He had
evidently been afraid to tell and invented the explanation of dragged
picket pins. She did not know whether the men believed it, but she saw
by their faces they were in no mood to admit extenuating circumstances.
The oath had been Courant's. When he heard her voice he shut his lips
on others, but they welled up in his eyes, glowering furiously on the
culprit from the jut of drawn brows.
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