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She sent up the old man's name in a quavering cry and the mountain man
dropped her arm and stepped back. She ran past him, and at the mouth of the opening, stopped and leaned
on a ledge, getting her breath and trying to control her trembling.
Daddy John was coming through the sage, a jack rabbit held up in one
hand. "Here's your supper," he cried jubilant. "Ain't I told you I'd get it?" She moved forward to meet him, walking slowly. When he saw her face,
concern supplanted his triumph. "We got to get you out of this," he said. "You're as peaked as one of
them frontier women in sunbonnets," and he tried to hook a
compassionate hand in her arm. But she edged away from him, fearful
that he would feel her trembling, and answered: "It's the heat. It seems to draw the strength all out of me." "The rabbit'll put some of it back. I'll go and get things started.
You sit by David and rest up," and he skurried away to the camp. She went to David, lying now with opened eyes and hands clasped beneath
his head. When her shadow fell across him he turned a brightened face
on her. "I'm better," he said. "If I could get some water I think I'd soon be
all right." She stood looking down on him with a clouded, almost sullen, expression. "Did you sleep long?" she asked for something to say. "I don't know how long. A little while ago I woke up and looked for
you, but you weren't anywhere round, so I just lay here and looked out
across to the mountains and began to think of California. I haven't
thought about it for a long while." She sat down by him and listened as he told her his thoughts. With a
renewal of strength the old dreams had come back - the cabin by the
river, the garden seeds to be planted, and now added to them was the
gold they were to find. She hearkened with unresponsive apathy. The
repugnance to this mutually shared future which had once made her
recoil from it was a trivial thing to the abhorrence of it that was now
hers. Dislikes had become loathings, a girl's whims, a woman's
passions. As David babbled on she kept her eyes averted, for she knew
that in them her final withdrawal shone coldly. Her thoughts kept
reverting to the scene in the cleft, and when she tore them from it and
forced them back on him, her conscience awoke and gnawed. She could no
more tell this man, returning to life and love of her, than she could
kill him as he lay there defenseless and trusting. At supper they measured out the water, half a cup for each. There
still remained a few inches in the cask. This was to be hoarded
against the next day. If Courant on his night journey could not strike
the upper trail and a spring they would have to retrace their steps,
and by this route, with the animals exhausted and their own strength
diminished, the first water was a twelve hours' march off. Susan and
Courant were silent, avoiding each other's eyes, torpid to the outward
observation. But the old man was unusually garrulous, evidently
attempting to raise their lowered spirits. He had much to say about
California and the gold there, speculated on their chances of fortune,
and then carried his speculations on to the joys of wealth and a future
in which Susan was to say with the Biblical millionaire, "Now soul take
thine ease." She rewarded him with a quick smile, then tipped her cup
till the bottom faced the sky, and let the last drop run into her mouth.
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