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"And look at the river, yellow, yellow with gold! I can't work now, I
want to see it all - and feel it too," and she ran to the water's edge
where she sat down on a rock and gazed up and down the canon. When the camp was ready Courant joined her. The rock was wide enough
for two and he sat beside her. "So you like it, Missy?" he said, sending a side-long glance at her
flushed face. "Like it!" though there was plenty of room she edged nearer to him,
"I'm wondering if it really is so beautiful or if I just think it so
after the trail." "You'll be content to stay here with me till we've made our pile?" She looked at him and nodded, then slipped her fingers between his and
whispered, though there was no one by to hear, "I'd be content to stay
anywhere with you." He was growing accustomed to this sort of reply. Deprived of it he
would have noticed the omission, but it had of late become so common a
feature in the conversation he felt no necessity to answer in kind. He
glanced at the pine trunks about them and said: "If the claim's good, we'll cut some of those and build a cabin.
You'll see how comfortable I can make you, the way they do on the
frontier." She pressed his fingers for answer and he went on: "When the winter comes we can move farther down. Up here we may get
snow. But there'll be time between now and then to put up something
warm and waterproof." "Why should we move down? With a good cabin we can be comfortable
here. The snow won't be heavy this far up. They told Daddy John all
about it at the Fort. And you and he can ride in there sometimes when
we want things." These simple words gratified him more than she guessed. It was as if
she had seen into the secret springs of his thought and said what he
was fearful she would not say. That was why - in a spirit of testing a
granted boon to prove its genuineness - he asked with tentative
questioning: "You won't be lonely? There are no people here." She made the bride's answer and his contentment increased, for again it
was what he would have wished her to say. When he answered he spoke
almost sheepishly, with something of uneasy confession in his look: "I'd like to live in places like this always. I feel choked and
stifled where there are walls shutting out the air and streets full of
people. Even in the Fort I felt like a trapped animal. I want to be
where there's room to move about and nobody bothering with different
kinds of ideas. It's only in the open, in places without men, that I'm
myself." For the first time he had dared to give expression to the mood of the
wakeful night. Though it was dim in the busy brightness of the
present - a black spot on the luster of cheerful days - he dreaded that
it might come again with its scaring suggestions. With a nerve that
had never known a tremor at any menace from man, he was frightened of a
thought, a temporary mental state. In speaking thus to her, he
recognized her as a help-meet to whom he could make a shamed admission
of weakness and fear no condemnation or diminution of love. This time,
however, she made the wrong reply: "But we'll go down to the coast after a while, if our claim's good and
we get enough dust out of it. I think of it often. It will be so nice
to live in a house again, and have some one to do the cooking, and wear
pretty clothes. It will be such fun living where there are people and
going about among them, going to parties and maybe having parties of
our own."
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