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"Have you lost your sweetheart?" said the man, who did not know the
relations of the party. "No," she said gravely, "my friend." Courant explained: "She's my wife. The man she's speaking of was a member of our company
that we lost on the desert. We thought Indians had got him and hoped
he'd get away and join with a later westbound train. His name was
David." The sailor shook his head. "Ain't seen no one answering to that name, nor to that description.
There wasn't a handsome-featured one in the lot, nor a David. But if
you're expecting him along, why don't you take her in and let her look
'em over? They told me at the Fort the trains was mostly all in or
ought to be. Any time now the snow on the summit will be too deep for
'em. If they get caught up there they can't be got out, so they're
coming over hot foot and are dumped down round Hock Farm. Not much to
see, but if you're looking for a friend it's worth trying." That night Courant was again wakeful. Susan's face, as she had
questioned the sailor, floated before him on the darkness. With it
came the thought of the dead man. In the silence David called upon him
from the sepulcher beneath the rock, sent a message through the night
which said that, though he was hidden from mortal vision, the memory of
him was still alive, imbued with an unquenchable vitality. His
unwinking eyes, with the rock crumbs sifting on them, looked at those
of his triumphant enemy and spoke through their dusted films. In the
moment of death they had said nothing to him, now they shone - not
angrily accusing as they had been in life - but stern with a vindictive
purpose. Courant began to have a fearful understanding of their meaning. Though
dead to the rest of the world, David would maintain an intense and
secret life in his murderer's conscience. He had never fought such a
subtle and implacable foe, and he lay thinking of how he could create
conditions that would give him escape, push the phantom from him, make
him forget, and be as he had been when no one had disputed his
sovereignty over himself. He tried to think that time would mitigate
this haunting discomfort. His sense of guilt, his fear of his wife,
would die when the novelty of once again being one with the crowd had
worn away. It was not possible that he, defiant of man and God, could
languish under this dread of a midnight visitation or a discovery that
never would be made. It was the reentering into the communal life that
had upset his poise - or was it the influence of the woman, the softly
pervasive, enervating influence? He came up against this thought with
a dizzying impact and felt himself droop and sicken as one who is faced
with a task for which his strength is inadequate. He turned stealthily and lay on his back, his face beaded with sweat.
The girl beside him waked and sat up casting a side glance at him. By
the starlight, slanting in through the raised tent door, she saw his
opened eyes and, leaning toward him, a black shape against the faintly
blue triangle, said: "Low, are you awake?" He answered without moving, glad to hear her speak, to know that sleep
had left her and her voice might conjure away his black imaginings. "Why aren't you sleeping?" she asked. "You must be half dead after
such work as you did today."
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