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It was her home - very different from the home she had dreamed of - but
so was her life different from the life she and her father had planned
together in the dead days of the trail. She delighted in it, gloated
over it. Long before the day of installation she moved in her
primitive furnishings, disposed the few pans with an eye to their
effect as other brides arrange their silver and crystal, hung her
flour-sack towels on the pegs with as careful a hand as though they had
been tapestries, and folded her clothes neat and seemly in her father's
chest. Then came a night when the air was sharp, and they kindled the
first fire in the wide chimney mouth. It leaped exultant, revealing
the mud-filled cracks, playing on the pans, and licking the bosses of
the old tankard. The hearthstone shone red with its light, and they
sat drawn back on the seats of pine looking into its roaring
depths - housed, sheltered, cozily content. When Glen and Bella retired
to their tent a new romance seemed to have budded in the girl's heart.
It was her bridal night - beneath a roof, beside a hearth, with a door
to close against the world, and shut her away with her lover. In these days she had many secret conferrings with Bella. They kept
their heads together and whispered, and Bella crooned and fussed over
her and pushed the men into the background in a masterful, aggressive
manner. Susan knew now what had waked the nest-building instinct. The
knowledge came with a thrilling, frightened joy. She sat apart
adjusting herself to the new outlook, sometimes fearful, then uplifted
in a rapt, still elation. All the charm she had once held over the
hearts of men was gone. Glen told Bella she was getting stupid, even
Daddy John wondered at her dull, self-centered air. She would not have
cared what they had said or thought of her. Her interest in men as
creatures to snare and beguile was gone with her lost maidenhood. All
that she had of charm and beauty she hoarded, stored up and jealously
guarded, for her husband and her child. "It'll be best for you to go down to the town," Bella had said to her,
reveling discreetly in her position as high priestess of these
mysteries, "there'll be doctors in Sacramento, some kind of doctors." "I'll stay here," Susan answered. "You're here and my husband and
Daddy John. I'd die if I was sent off among strangers. I can't live
except with the people I'm fond of. I'm not afraid." And the older woman decided that maybe she was right. She could see
enough to know that this girl of a higher stock and culture, plucked
from a home of sheltered ease to be cast down in the rude life of the
pioneer, was only a woman like all the rest, having no existence
outside her own small world. So the bright, monotonous days filed by, always sunny, always warm,
till it seemed as if they were to go on thus forever, glide into a
winter which was still spring. An excursion to Sacramento, a big day's
clean up, were their excitements. They taught little Bob to help at
the rocker, and the women sat by the cabin door sewing, long periods of
silence broken by moments of desultory talk. Susan had grown much
quieter. She would sit with idle hands watching the shifting lights
and the remoter hills turning from the afternoon's blue to the rich
purple of twilight. Bella said she was lazy, and urged industry and
the need of speed in the preparation of the new wardrobe. She laughed
indolently and said, time enough later on. She had grown indifferent
about her looks - her hair hanging elfish round her ears, her blouse
unfastened at the throat, the new boots Low had brought her from
Sacramento unworn in the cabin corner, her feet clothed in the ragged
moccasins he had taught her to make.
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