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Her eyes came slowly down and rested on him in a musing gaze. "A grain of dust. I never felt that way. I shouldn't think you'd like
it, but I don't see why you were afraid." David felt uncomfortable. She was so exceedingly practical and direct
that he had an unpleasant feeling she would set him down as a coward,
who went about under the fear that a meteor might fall on him and
strike him dead. He tried to explain: "Not afraid actually, just sort of frozen by the idea of it all. It's
so - immense, so - so crushing and terrible." Her gaze continued, a questioning quality entering it. This gained in
force by a slight tilting of her head to one side. David began to fear
her next question. It might show that she regarded him not only as a
coward but also as a fool. "Perhaps you don't understand," he hazarded timidly. "I don't think I do," she answered, then dropped her eyes and added
after a moment of pondering, "I can't remember ever being really afraid
of anything." Had it been daylight she would have noticed that the young man colored.
He thought guiltily of certain haunting fears of his childhood, ghosts
in the attic, a banshee of which he had once heard a fearsome story, a
cow that had chased him on the farm. She unconsciously assisted him
from this slough of shame by saying suddenly: "Oh, yes, I can. I remember now. I'm afraid of mad dogs." It was not very comforting for, after all, everybody was afraid of mad
dogs. "And there was a reason for that," she went on. "I was frightened by a
mad dog when I was a little girl eight years old. I was going out to
spend some of my allowance. I got twenty cents a month and I had it
all in pennies. And suddenly there was a great commotion in the
street, everybody running and screaming and rushing into doorways. I
didn't know what was the matter but I was startled and dropped my
pennies. And just as I stooped to pick them up I saw the dog coming
toward me, tearing, with its tongue hanging out. And, would you
believe it, I gathered up all those pennies before I ran and just had
time to scramble over a fence." It was impossible not to laugh, especially with her laughter leading,
her eyes narrowed to cracks through which light and humor sparkled at
him. He was beginning to know Miss Gillespie"Miss Susan" he called
her - very well. It was just like his dream, riding beside her every
day, and growing more friendly, the spell of her youth, and her dark
bloom, and her attentive eyes - for she was an admirable listener if her
answers sometimes lacked point - drawing from him secret thoughts and
hopes and aspirations he had never dared to tell before. If she did
not understand him she did not laugh at him, which was enough for David
with the sleepy whisperings of the prairie around him, and new, strange
matter stirring in his heart and making him bold.
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