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"What else? You can say anything you like to me. Ain't I carried you
when you were a baby?" "I don't know what it is." Her voice came cut by sobbing breaths. "I
don't understand. It's like being terribly lonesome." The old frontiersman had no remedy ready for this complaint. He, too,
did not understand. "Don't you marry him if you don't like him," he said. "If you want to
tell him so and you're afraid, I'll do it for you." "I do like him. It's not that." "Well, then, what's making you cry?" "Something else, something way down deep that makes everything seem so
far away and strange." He leaned forward and spat over the wheel, then subsided against the
roof prop. "Are you well?" he said, his imagination exhausted. "Yes, very." Daddy John looked at the backs of the mules. The off leader was a
capricious female by name Julia who required more management and
coaxing than the other five put together, and whom he loved beyond them
all. In his bewildered anxiety the thought passed through his mind
that all creatures of the feminine gender, animal or human, were
governed by laws inscrutable to the male, who might never aspire to
comprehension and could only strive to please and placate. A footfall struck on his ear and, thrusting his head beyond the canvas
hood, he saw Leff loafing up from the rear. "Saw her come in here," thought the old man, drawing his head in, "and
wants to hang round and snoop." Since the Indian episode he despised Leff. His contempt was unveiled,
for the country lout who had shown himself a coward had dared to raise
his eyes to the one star in Daddy John's firmament. He would not have
hidden his dislike if he could. Leff was of the outer world to which
he relegated all men who showed fear or lied. He turned to Susan: "Go back in the wagon and lie down. Here comes Leff and I don't want
him to see you." The young girl thought no better of Leff than he did. The thought of
being viewed in her abandonment by the despised youth made her scramble
into the back of the wagon where she lay concealed on a pile of sacks.
In the forward opening where the canvas was drawn in a circle round a
segment of sky, Daddy John's figure fitted like a picture in a circular
frame. As a step paused at the wheel she saw him lean forward and
heard his rough tones. "Yes, she's here, asleep in the back of the wagon." Then Leff's voice, surprised: "Asleep? Why, it ain't an hour since we started." "Well, can't she go to sleep in the morning if she wants? Don't you go
to sleep every Sunday under the wagon?" "Yes, but that's afternoon."
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